by Usha Jayadevan, India
I joined the Mohanji Family group in late 2022 and met Mohanji in January 2023. I first learned about Mohanji through YouTube. In March 2024, I took part in a 21-day Inverted Pyramid Meditation Sadhana (practice).
On the second day, towards the end of the meditation, I felt as though I was suddenly falling into a deep sleep. However, I wasn’t actually asleep; I could still hear all the guidance. At that exact moment, I felt a powerful burning sensation at my Sahasrara (the crown chakra).
By then, the meditation had concluded. Afterwards, I felt a deep desire to sit somewhere in complete silence and do nothing at all.
I somehow finished my household chores and went to bed. After about three hours of deep sleep, I woke up and couldn’t fall back asleep. I just lay there. One major thing I noticed was that it felt like a rebirth. Usually, when we wake up, one or two significant events from the previous day come to mind, providing a sense of continuity. However, I couldn’t remember anything. I felt a complete loss of continuity.
Additionally, I experienced a loss of balance, feeling as though I might fall, and my spine was like a red-hot iron. I also felt a recurring burning sensation at the Sahasrara (the crown chakra). I couldn’t immerse myself in any of my usual activities, like reading books or doing housework. The exhaustion was beyond what I could bear, and I felt deeply distressed.
For three days, I slept only three hours each night. During this time, I felt as though I were a powerful light, and I sensed that not even a trace of fear remained within me. When I thought of Mohanji, I could see him clearly within my heart. It was such a powerful transformation, even if I didn’t fully understand what was happening at the time.
After those three days, my exhaustion vanished, and a unique sense of happiness surged through my mind.
I felt a voice from within calling me to go deeper into myself. I replied, “Let me finish my household chores first.” Once those were done, I asked if I could take my usual 20-minute nap and make a quick trip to the shop. I received permission from within.
After completing everything, Mohanji’s book, Silence of Shiva, came into my hands. I felt ready to go within, but I wasn’t sure how to proceed. I wondered if I should practice the ‘Power of Purity’ Meditation or any other meditation, but my mind said no.
I sat down with my eyes closed and my spine erect. In the next moment, I reached the doorway of my inner world. It was completely dark there. I couldn’t see anyone. Although I felt a flicker of fear, my mind kept reassuring me that the Guru would come.
Just then, Mohanji appeared. The entire space was filled with light. He took my hand. In that space, I saw myself as a five-year-old girl. I was walking, skipping along while holding Mohanji’s hand. We were walking above the clouds. After walking for a while, I asked where we were going. Mohanji replied with great affection, “Keep walking, you will see.”
After walking quite a distance, I saw a sphere glowing with white light like the moon, but much larger. We walked closer to it and stopped at a certain point. Mohanji said, “This is our Father; you are not yet ready to go any closer.” After standing there for some time, gazing at the Father, we walked back. Mohanji left me at the gateway to this world and departed. My eyes were welling up, and my voice was trembling… That was how Mohanji revealed the Supreme Father to me—my ultimate destination.
After that experience, I felt an intense urge to apply for Mai-Tri. However, I was plagued by doubts: Why am I feeling this way? It’s only been a year since I started following Mohanji. What qualification do I have to handle something as powerful as Mai-Tri? Those who handle it now have been following him for many years.
Despite these thoughts, the urge to apply was so overwhelming that I sent in my application. I had absolutely no self-confidence. A week later, I received a reply saying I should strengthen my connection with Mohanji in a specific way and then reapply the following year.
Accepting this, I accidentally clicked onto my Instagram page. The first thing I saw was a message from Sathya Sai Baba, and I felt that I wasn’t accepted because I doubted the connection.
Only then did I realise it was Mohanji himself who had inspired me to apply for Mai-Tri, and that very inspiration was the connection. I should not have doubted it; I should have accepted it. Then, after one year of practices like aarati, Mohanji Gayathri chanting, etc., I became a Mai-Tri practitioner.
I also realised that “connection” isn’t built solely through physical proximity over years in this lifetime. I learned to follow my heart; this is exactly why I needed to become a MTP. Now, if anyone asks me about the urge to apply for Mai-Tri or if they are eligible, I tell them: “Do not disqualify yourself just because you’ve only known Mohanji for a few years. Follow your heart.”
Through this experience, Mohanji helped me dissolve my doubts and become a Mai-Tri Practitioner.
|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI ||
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 1st September 2026
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